Gig Fits #3

Friday I did that thing where I went to a show for something to do. Something I’m trying to do this year is actively do less of that but I’ve been on a Can’t Be Alone tip recently so I went to see Sophia Stel. I talked to Sophia on the phone once about her first EP before it came out, she is one of the girls who can grow their hair past their boobs which is something I have struggled with for my entire life. I really like/respect her music and I think it’s a good thing I actually can’t tell what the demographic of her fan base actually is? Looking back in my notes about the show I saw I had written “regional ethel cain” about how this like prettiest girl at the gas station vibe has really come back into vogue….

I saw Vivian as I was leaving the show and asked her if I could take her photo. Speaking of things coming back into cycle she said she bought her shirt from Etsy a decade ago and only recently has started wearing it again. I find in the past few years in a desire to have a “capsule wardrobe” I regret letting many pieces go before they came back into the mix. I could really go in about this but you can’t change the past! She is wearing Acne jeans rolled up because they are too loose (NYC girl flex) and children’s Air Force One sneakers (another flex??). I feel like I have really settled into my adult body because the fits at Brandy are not hitting and I have to shop at LA Apparel instead for basics. Vivian wins accessory of the night because of her silver heart-shaped necklace - I asked if there was anything inside and she opened it to reveal a picture of Bladee ;)

I was lazy and also photographed my friend Dani on the way to the afterparty but I needed to get her on the substack! She is wearing a micro-mini from MNZ, shoes also MNZ. One of those Cou Cou intimates tops everybody has because they fit better than anything from Brandy or LA Apparel, a vintage fur, Calzedonia tights and one of those SC103 bags that even though is 100 colors somehow goes with everything. Very NYC girl. I wanted to go in on the fur and she told me the sweetest story, I’ll paraphrase - “so basically my cousin’s paternal grandmother was living in Miami and had like four fur coats in her closet (so Jewish grandmother) and when she was moving out oof her place my aunt was like “you don’t need these, you live in Florida” and sent it to me. it has her initial stitched on the inside <3”.

I love that both of these fits have like a secret personal thing inside of them that you would only know if you asked. I’ve been thinking recently about the weight of everything and how people can feel it, I was sitting in Fort Greene park with Mandy talking about how sometimes I feel the heaviness of everything I have ever experienced wherever I go in the city, I’ve been feeling that so much lately more than ever. Clothes also have that history of everything sentiment, you carry it with you. I sunburned my cheek on the bench, I’ve been feeling so frail and like everything I touch causes me pain sometimes -so Scorpio Moon weekend coded- but I’m happy to like be myself internally and externally on the same level even though sometimes it’s bad to show everything on the outside. I saw the Devil Wears Prada 2 yesterday and sometimes bad things can be good!!!